So I moved away from the apps and I am trying to connect more through texts. I figure I will try to maintain and connect more to people I have met. I have been meeting El and building our friendship which has been fun and I am so glad to have actually found someone I like. I also have met with a friend of mine from high school, can you believe that!? I’ll call her Wind and it is such a trip I haven’t seen her in over twelve years, so we are reconnecting and it seems to be going well.
I will also be meeting a couple of other girls who hopefully I can build friendships as well. Hopefully next week I can have a longer update.
Yes, I am getting white hairs. While I have been getting white hairs for a while, it seems different somehow. You know what they say, pluck one and two more take it’s place? well it seems to be true. Maybe it’s because I am in my 30s now but I just let them stay now and try to own it like I wanted them (no idea if I do yet).
I also was accepted into a internship program, which excites and delights me, but also makes me apprehensive. It is at a coroner’s office and while I don’t mind being around dead bodies it does give me pause because I am unsure of what I actually will be seeing. Plus, being an intern at 30 is a bit weird but that is what happens when you don’t have the money/ability to get loans after high school. It’s something I have to accept, although the feeling I get when I see people who already have the careers they want (and are younger than me) is ugly and I hate it. I will just take it as a lesson learned.
In other news however, I have been trying to get out more. Going to open air markets, farmers markets and just trying to have a positive outlook on life because I need a change to my mentality and unless I do something things wont change.
What have you all been doing?
So Friend-wise I still have yet to meet anyone face to face, which leads me to have questions like:
Am I taking things to slow?
Do people even want to be my friend?
Should I just ask?
How long does one even wait until you ask someone to meet?
It’s just so hard trying to make friends when your no longer going to parties, around people the same age as you at school, or you know hate your job… but I am trying. I just didn’t realize how insecure you start to feel when you really want something as simple as making a friend.
I’m still having chats with people though, while some have fizzled out I still have quite a few that I keep up a steady stream of chatter with. Hopefully next week I will have an update, something that will give me (and you) hope that this whole internet friendship stuff works.
So, I wanted to redesign my blog to suit how I want to be rebranded. Unfortunately, it’s taking longer than I would like. I wanted to have a grand opening, but I decided instead of letting my blog sit unused I wanted to start posting again! Well it’s March, my birthday month! I’m turning 31 and I really want to start being the person I want to be end up being. I am hoping to do more outdoor activities and more lifestyle aimed posts while still doing beauty and fashion. So stay tuned!
Also, if there is something that you want to see on this blog I would love to hear all about it!
Lately I have been so busy! I started my pace summer classes so that is taking up so much time, but not only that I started a new job. So far I’ve been doing good and I just wanted to let you all know.
With this new job I am working full time and I am able to actually dress up for it. I really want to show you all what I am wearing for it since I’ve been really into style and fashion lately. I hope I’ll be doing a haul soon since I bought some new shoes and I just want to show you all what I bought. Don’t expect designer though since I have like zero spending cash right now. I need to get that paycheck.
I am thinking of trying some fashion subscriptions, anyone know of any they recommend, I’ve tried Golden Tote and love it but I am just wondering if there are any others.
Bah! Humbug kittens!
So Christmas really is my least favorite time of the year. My Heart does not grow three sizes . I am not suddenly overwhelmed with the spirit of Christmas and hug poor crippled kids named Tim. In fact, I change the station when a Christmas song comes on and I walk away from Conversations regarding Christmas shopping.
I did not used to be this way, when I was a lot younger I loved Christmas because it meant spending time with family and having fun, as I got older it seems that all of the magic I once thought Christmas to be, disappeared.
All Christmas reminds me of now is horrible music, consumerism sidelining my favorite holiday (Thanksgiving is #1!) and Heavy traffic all the time! During Christmas season I barely even want to leave my house!
Alright so enough about how I would be the perfect person to cast for Ebeneezer here’s an update. I just finished my finals for the semester (I passed BTW!) and I have Three whole weeks until I have to go back again (WooHoo!) so I apologize for not being able to update as much due to studying and whatnot but I am back and I am going to focus a lot my efforts into this blog while I have to the time.
I am also going to be focusing my efforts on better managing my time, since an important part of running a blog is time management and I have sort of let that run away from me, but I will recapture that silly white rabbit if it is the last thing I do.
So cheers and kisses!