Health: #SerenitySaturday It’s December!

This morning I awoke to snow, and while it technically isn’t winter yet (not until the 21st) it seemed a bit magical. The snow didn’t stick around since it isn’t really cold enough yet, so everything is just wet and cold but I still don’t mind. I needed that little bit of magic because the holidays really make you miss family. It doesn’t help that I recently had to miss my cousin’s wedding, who I am close with. Seeing all the pictures of her wedding posted on Social Media actually made this feeling of sadness worse.

Communication of my emotions is key to not letting me go down this depressive hole. I’ve talked to my husband about it, and expressed my feelings. He understands and is completely supportive, which is nice. I’m also trying to keep busy so I won’t dwell on it so much. So, I am doing a little decorative planning to keep my mind at bay. 

The house still needs work, plus I have some ideas for a vanity corner for my beauty products. I’m also planning on having a sort of “formal” living room or maybe making a little library. Who knows!

Health: #SerenitySaturday – Unwinding from a long week

I don’t know about you all, but it has been a long week. I felt like I was running around with my head cut off trying to finish errands, Cooking on Thanksgiving, and to anyone who went Black Friday shopping, I need a day to relax. While Sunday’s are usually the day that people use for relaxation, for me I spend it getting ready for the week ahead, this includes cleaning, laundry, and meal prep. This does not help me relax, Sunday nights I do facemasks or try out different skincare. 

Saturdays are for relaxing for me. I am 31 years old so clubbing and bar hopping happen like once in a blue moon now. My relaxation comes in the morning with a cup of coffee or tea, especially in this cold weather. I then have a piece of Home made sourdough bread, sometimes I top this with brie or butter and jelly. 

I read a book while eating and drinking, I am currently reading two books one is Then She was Gone by Lisa Jewell, the second is Altered Carbon by Richard K. Morgan, The latter book I discuss with my husband Saturdays as well. 

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I spend some time with the animals too, either throwing the ball for the dogs or cuddling with the cats, I make sure to spend some time with each of them. Love it when I can get Mordechai to purr since he does it so infrequently. 

I spend sometime taking pictures so the blog and doing crafts for my planner or around the house. I like to feel like I accomplish stuff.

I do Yoga when I’m done to stretch out my body and my mind, then I take a relaxing bath with some epsom salt or a bath bomb/oil if I have one on hand. 

The night is spend cuddling with the hubby, we sometimes rent movies and pig out with chocolate strawberries or just binge something on Hulu and Netflix. We are almost done with Brooklyn 99. 

This does wonders for my mental health, as it centers me and reminds me why I spend all that time during the week doing hectic things. 

Always make sure to set aside some mental health time, being stress out affects your body in negative ways. 

Getting back in the blogging Rhythm.

Hey Everyone,

I’ve been gone for a while, not because I wanted to trust me. There were just some real-life issues that got in the way. One was that my depression had hit an all-time low causing me to lack the energy to do anything, much less get up in the morning. My medication is really helping me out so I got that under control now. Also, school was just really breaking my back this semester, I feel like I have so much homework and exams I just can’t focus. Plus I kinda get test stressed and well it freaks me out.

Another huge thing is that we are currently trying to buy a house. Anyone who has ever done this will know exactly how much time (and stress!) goes into this. We put an offer on a house and hopefully we will have it by the 31st! I am seriously so excited (and scared). If everything goes smoothly I’ll hopefully be posting pictures soon! I have such big plans and I really can’t wait to share with you all!

One thing that I am doing to sort of help me get back in the blogging rhythm is I made a Beauty Instagram! It’s a lot easier for me to post pictures than plan update and write a blog. Doing this though has re-established my love for beauty and I think I’ve sort of stepped away from that and well I need to start getting back on that.

I am still debating if I want to add fashion to this or not. What do you all think?

I’m not ashamed I’m on Anti-Depressants

Lets get real shall we? Depression is more than just feeling sad, It’s feelings of despair, Loneliness, and hopelessness to the point where it interrupts your normal life. Depression runs in my family on both sides, my mother however was the first one to  open to me about depression and what to look for since it seems Hereditary. She wanted me to know, so if this ever happened for me I would get help right away. I am forever grateful for this, as no one really teaches you these things. Most people see depression as an excuse to be lazy, to sit around all day doing nothing. If you never have suffered from depression you have no idea what it feels like to feel just total and utter devastation and not know why.

Two years ago I started feeling like something was wrong. I felt like I had this black hole in my chest and nothing could fill it. I wanted to cry at odd times at nothing. I would spend whole days upset and sad for no reason. I became cynical and pessimistic. My husband would constantly ask me what was wrong and I would say nothing, cause at the time I had no idea. My life was good, my husband and I both had okay paying jobs, Tesla and Mordechai were okay. It didn’t make any sense why I would be feeling this way.

One day I sat and thought about it, I then remember what my mom had said about it. I was in denial. There was nothing wrong with me, I’ll get over it, I would constantly tell myself these things. To say you were depressed was admitting you had a flaw, a weakness and no one wants to tell anyone about it. It wasn’t until my depression started overlapping into my marriage. Having my husband, who I love so much, ask me if I was unhappy with him, If I still loved him, if I was going to leave him. I knew that I needed help, Step one was just admitting to myself that I did.

I saw a doctor and was told that Depression could be why I was not sleeping, why I was not able to concentrate any more, Why I was unhappy for no reason. Having answers to a question you have been wanting to know is like taking a breath of fresh air. I was prescribed two medications and I still take them to this day. They help me and while I am not a advocate for Medicating first, ask questions later, this is important.

I’m happier now, I am trying to focus more on positive thoughts and ideas. I am trying to look at the bright side of things and letting things get in the way of my happiness or the happiness of those I love.

Don’t get me wrong, there are those days that depression starts reeling it’s ugly head in, but at least I can handle it now, I know what it is and how to challenge it head on.

If you, or someone you know might be suffering from depression, Please, Please, Please see your doctor.

May you always have Serotonin in your life

I am a huge science and chemistry nerd, I even contemplated Chemistry as my major for college. So seeing this necklace made me so excited. Another reason I wanted this necklace is because I suffer from depression. I have to take medication everyday just to feel normal.

Serotonin Necklace

It runs in my family so I knew there was a chance I could experience depression. When Rosa Vila Boutique offered me a chance to work with them I immediately zeroed in on this necklace. This necklace helps me to remind myself to be positive and think of happier Serotonin filled times.

The only thing I find a fault in was the chain length I wish it was a inch or so longer.

If you would like to view or purchase the necklace for yourself you can do that HERE

*This product was discounted to me for a fair and honest review